Guren With Subtitles/30th Post!

Here is Guren with subtitles:



I'll leave it up to you to decode all that for yourself. I still don't quite get it.

Also, this is my 30th post here! Hooray for me!

~ZB24~

Wednesday Update/SuG

I should really be in bed right now because we have to go to the store tomorrow, but want to post here about what's going on lately.

First, I've been listening to SuG. I find it worth mentioning that they're under the same label as alice nine. and GazettE. I started liking their music when I heard Love Scream Party. It's a cool song. I don't know exactly what it means yet, but I don't think it's too bad. The video for the forementioned song is below:




SuG came out with their first songs last year by the way. They're really new. {And the lead singer has the cutest eyes in this video!} One thing about SuG is that the name is a derivative from the word "Thug". That's not cute. (<_<)

I must have slept on the wrong side of my head again. My cheek is wrapping around my bottom wire again. I am glad I found some wax while I was cleaning. It would have been a terrible crisis to run out.

And I wanted to say that even though I'm not supposed to be listening to GazettE, I cannot let go of their song Guren. I don't know what it's about. Some people say it's about a miscarriage. But, it's a great song and I really love the sound.



Ruki is creepy, but I love 4:40! The little eye squint around that time is H.O.T.

I am going to go now. I really need to get some sleep.

~ZB24~

PS> I made a wallpaper of Tora last night. It's really pretty. Maybe one of my best.

http://www.zooomr.com/z/photos/zoom/4699338/size-16/

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Listening to: SuG - Love Scream Party

NOOOO!!! NOT THAT VIDEO!!!

Mom had me "massage her head" today. I said I would do it if she played something off of my favorites page. This exercise started out fine until she clickued on the video of Gackt performing Love Letter. From here, things just went downhill. A string of video (some of which I hadn't seen!) led us to this video:



OF ALL THINGS! WHY GACKTxMANA?! WHY??!! I have nothing against Mana, but it's so effing awkward to be sitting there with your MOTHER watching this. I come across these videos all the time and just skip over them because I don't want to tarnish my image of Gackt. Hey, may as well be honest. I would rather not watch it and Gackt himself may want to put it behind him.

Anyway, the conversation between mom and I was along the lines of this (can you call it a conversation?):

Me: Click '(More Info)'. {Never seen the video before.}
My Reaction: (x_x) PLEASE let there be no fanservice in here! PLEASE~!
[Fanservice]
Mom: Is this a man?
Me: Uh.. yes. Supposedly. Yeah.
*watching* [Gackt gropes Mana]
Me: (*o*)(X_X) NO NO NO~~~! I HAVE TO GET HER AWAY FROM THIS VIDEO! "CAN WE CHANGE TO SOMETHING ELSE PLEASE?!"
Mom: (>_>)
Me: "I DON'T WANNA WATCH GACKT BEING ALL GAY!"
Mom: Oh okay~~~ Sorry. *clicks away*

This leads to a video of Gackt's dog, Belle. Thank God. Pretty harmless. I figured it was good to stop there, but I still had parts of her head to do. So I had her punch in a clip of Moon Child. *sigh* I barely made it out. *wipes sweat off of forehead*

The last thing I want is for Mom to see Gackt in a bad way. I don't want her to get defensive about me liking him so much, if you know what I mean.

I really don't like fanservice or yaoi all that much. (<_<) style="font-style: italic;">hot. But in general, I don't like it.

I don't there there are many things more awkward than watching fanservice with your Mom. (v_v)

~ZB24~



mom, yaoi, and youtube. (X_X)

"MORE VK" & "HONGKI IS A MAN"

I'm working on my VK paper again. It's going okay and coming together nicely. I may need another day... or I may stay up late. But I'm tired okay?! I got a visit from the blood angels [Women may get this analogy] and so I'm tired. I want to sleep. Or watch something on my iPod in bed. I don't know how many times I can watch Devil Beside You. I think I need to replace it with something else. Maybe MARS.

Got a comment on my video When Someone's Wish Comes True today asking if Hongki was a boy or a girl. ROTFLOL. I told her he was boy and she went to watch the original MV. The whole situation was hilarious, but at least she didn't mean it a mocking way.

Got more paper editing to do, so I gotta cut this off now.

I'm glad I can post here so often. I hope I keep doing this.

~ZB24~

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Listening to: A NEW EARTH - Oprah & Eckhart

For The Love Of J-Rock!

So right now, I am just worried about the state of my fandom. Mainly because of what happened with mom, I keep questioning my own judgment when picking bands to follow. Reading all the stuff about Visual Kei helped a bit, but for some reason I still feel worried.

I think my main fear is that mom will overreact and tell me not to listen to J-Rock anymore. Or she might even take my computer. These things scare me! I don't want them to happen! I could just not show her J-Rock anymore, but I like sharing what I'm interested in. I see mom the most and have few friends so...

I don't know what to do! I feel as if this paper, if I can do it correctly, will really help the situation. what I want mom to understand is this:

• Not all J-Rockers are like GazettE.
  
• Not all J-Rockers sing songs with subject matter like Taion.
  
• The one at fault IS NOT the Visual Kei genre, but the author of those lyrics (Ruki) and the people who committed the crime (so that Ruki could write about it).

That's it! It's not hard right? So I hope I can get this message across without mom getting all definsive and evil about it.

I really do love J-Rock and Visual Kei.

I generally go through phases with music and I want this phase to be a happy one. And I don't want this phase to end prematurely, either.

There are other things bothering me too, like how some fans of J-Rock act. They can get kind of wild and say some really weird things. It makes other J-Rock fans look bad when they say that kind of stuff. I'm not like that, but when people read it they will lump all the fans together.

There's also that part about how I didn't used to like guys before this year. Now I say stuff on forums about how "hot" such and such is. It's just natural I guess, but sometimes it makes me feel funny. (*_*) I guess I'm just not used to feeling this stuff so... [this paragraph has nothing to do with J-Rock.]

I used to think that there wasn't anything I wanted to take back in my life. But right now, if asked, I want to take back the video of Taion that I subbed. I really wish I hadn't ever done that. The video itself wasn't bad, but I had to many details about the background story in there. To be honest, I felt that if I took them out it would detract from the impact of the story. But when mom saw it, she got so disturbed. She explained to me how it would disturb other women too and said I should take it down. Which I did, because I realized I screwed up. Mother also said that I should stop listening to GazettE. At the time I was crying because it was the first video I subbed and I had to delete it. It was a great disappointment. In addition, I couldn't listen to my new favorite band (which also meant I had to delete hide the wallpaper I made of them). It was just a terrible experience!

And then I felt bad for days because of what happened. I felt like a dumb, stupid, terrible person for liking GazettE and subbing that video. I just wanted to tell people about the meaning behind it. I got tired of people saying the liked the song and acting like they didn't know what it was about. I wanted people to feel the magnitude of the situation. I wanted them to get pissed and take cases like this more seriously.

But after the video came out and mom saw it, I felt like it was a case I should have never read. But, if it really happened, why not? It's terrible sure, but it DID happen. It wasn't something I (or Ruki) made up. It wasn't some weirded out fictional story. I didn't get off on it. There are some freaks I'm sure who get off on reading that kind of crap, but I didn't. I just got upset. While subbing the video, I kept seeing it so it lost it's jarring quality after a while. But when I first read it I felt terrible for the girl and Ruki too, who must have felt sad while writing the song. And while thinking about all of this, I feel bad because I became desensitized to it after a while. But for real, how many times can a person read something a get emotional every time?!

In addition, my mother is very emotional in that she always cries at movies. She can see a movie 10 times and would still cry! But I never cry and movies and feel bad for not crying. I sometimes think there is something wrong with me. It's not that I don't care, I just can't cry over it. I cried when I lost GazettE, when I injure myself, when I get frustrated with school, and other such things. I sometimes choke up for movies, I guess, but I never full out cry like mom.

I don't understand why I am so confused over everything! This was not a big matter, but it has somehow made me question my entire personality and morals for no reason! and that's not right. Am I being too hard of myself? I AM a perfectionist (like my father), so maybe I want myself to be perfect. I don't know...

Oprah has a section in her magazine called Things I Know For Sure. Here are mine:

• Reading the story was not bad because it was an actual event.
  
• Putting the whole event into the video was no bad because of what you wanted to achive. But, you should have thought about how other people would react. It was a bit impulzive.
  
• Not many people were affected before you took the video down, so don't worry about that.
• All J-Rock is not bad, you just need to be very selective about what you watch and listen to. It is not too late to change.
• You are not a bad person because you listen to J-Rock and subbed a morbid song.
• Everyone makes mistakes. You are only human. In comparison, your mistake was really quite small.
  
• You parents don't think you're a pervert, but they probably think you act without thinking. Simply prove them wrong. Keep in mind that your brain is still developing.
  
• You could be worse. Just do better.

I suppose this has helped me a bit. It has helped me organize my thoughts.

*looks around* How much did I type?! I guess I will end this now.

~ZB24~

PS> I was showing dad alice nine. and he seemed to approve of them! He didn't say they sounded sad like GazettE. This makes me happy. [Keep in mind that alice nine. is oshare kei, too.] I think I will check out more Oshare Kei soon and see if I can find something I like.

PPS> Sorry for any spelling and grammar errors, I can't bring myself to proofread ^that^.

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Listening to: alice nine. - 無限の花 (Mugen no Hana)

VK Is More Cool Than I Knew

It's really quite fascinating. I think I like it more than ever. LOL~

I just hope I can paint VK in a positive light. Because, it isn't terrible.

But, Mom really doesn't like it.

I still regret that I showed her Taion with subs and the background story. *shakes head*

I just hope I can make things better, or at the very LEAST not worse.

The paper went okay today.

~ZB24~

A Parent's Guide to J-Rock

I don't know who originally wrote this.

A Parent's Guide to J-Rock

1.] Don't worry, your kid probably isn't gay, even though the pictures hanging next to their bed look like girls.

2.] Don't get your kid an English CD for their birthday or any other gift giving holiday, they probably won't like it.

3.] When they show you a picture of their favorite singer, don't instantly assume that it's a girl, it probably isn't.

4.] If you walk into the room while they are on the computer and they minimize the window instantly, don't be offended, it's probably for your own protection.

5.] Don't be surprised if their total clothing and make-up style changes

6.] If they start speaking a language that is almost English, but not quite, don't worry. Its called "Engrish". You'll get used to it.

7.] Don't insult their favorite J-Rockers.

8.] When they start talking about Lucifer, they aren't worshiping Satan.

9.] Buy more ink jet cartridges for the printer, the more pics the fan has, the happier they will be.

10.] Don't be surprised when you can no longer talk to your child about anything except Japan.

11.] Be prepared to learn more than you ever had, about something you never wanted to know about.

12.] A man in a dress is sexy, no matter what you say, nothing can change that.

13.] Don't correct them when they spell the name "hide" with a lower case h, that's how it's done.

14.] When they collect scrap fabrics to make plushies, don't worry, they aren't practicing voodoo.

15.] It doesn't matter that they don't know what the singers are saying, don't bother arguing about it.

16.] J-Rock isn't a phase and they won't grow out of it.


It's really funny right? But I don't think my mom would get it! ROTFLOL.

I'm gonna go to bed now. It's getting really late. See you later okay?!

~ZB24~

PS> It's really awesome keeping a blog like this! I can just write whatever I want!!! *runs around in circles* I should probably make it private though huh? LOL~

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Listening to: パパとムスメの７日間 OST - 希望とともに～ピアノソロ